Being others x

Sometimes i really wonder how is it like to be others. I want to be so many people. They just seemed happier than who i am now. And i've decided to start with my small haul first since it has been a year since i went to Bugis. Yesterday i explored bugis street with my pals. I like their company best. They make me feel safe and secure ( i think cause i knew them for around 9 years now ) and even my parents trust me more when i'm with them , they allowed impromptu dinners with them like yesterday i just informed last minute and my mom's like , " okay just let me know what time you're coming home. " first time in forever. It's kinda good to hear something like that once in a while like they are assuring that your parents trusts you. 

That's the first item i got from Bugis street , to be exact, the second level. Sorry for the bad "modelling" i have no one by my side to help me take a photo at that point of time. I have always wanted a lace cardigan. It makes me feel better. Then i got an acid washed denim jacket that i really loveddd. It's so pretty , the one i got at home is way too tight fitting for my liking. I prefer things to be oversized though this is not really too big but i like it the way it is. 

I don't know why but i just had no feels to do a video about my July hauls maybe cause there were not alot of items or maybe i lost the motivation. 

One of my favourite buys of the day. The double pocket denim shorts!! I loved it to death now. Just got it and i have already considered it as one of my favourite denim shorts. Will do a favourite shorts collection when i am motivated and think that i have enough shorts. 

It's so adorable. Got this 2 items with the pals. VANS muscle tee is actually in Forest green colour. Nicole and i had troubles deciding who to get the maroon coloured one cause we both wanted maroon at first but they only had one piece so we ended up getting one maroon and one forest green. Cheryl being the smart bimbo of the day ;-)) hid the bags behind her and asked us to choose left or right. Thanks Cheryl , hopefully you're reading this. And the pencil case is customizable. I just had my name and a ballerina charm on it, don't want to spend so much on it but for the fact that it is leather, worth. 

My #ootd ; asos inspired denim crop from Malaysia sometime back. Just calculated and realized how cheap this crop was. And the shorts i got *inserts hearts eye emoji* 

Got a new cleanser. Felt the need to include here cause like the skincare routine part i haven't got this yet. 

my camera shy friends. they just shun from cameras but we got a pic at last. If you realized , we are trying to match prints. Prints of the day : floral because the birthday girl said so ( nicole's advance birthday celebration ) i looked bad in like 3/4 of the photos but i still want to post it here because i think they need some recognition. Back to my being others part , sometimes i really wonder what it is like to be others. I looked at so many people and that thought just pops up. Like what is it like to be liked / loved by so many people , to be famous , to feel happy in your own skin and to really feel contented with life like really no complains , what is it like to be those people with their carefree mindset , what is it like to be my parents. Would i be happier? I feel burdened by my own thoughts. I feel that i can't do this anymore..i feel that everything's not working out right and everything's going back to square one. This can totally be a " i feel like " poem anymore. I am someone who likes to be freed from my own thoughts and ways. I don't like to feel what i am going through now , i know after talking so much you may think that i'm just trying to list down all my 101 problems and i have never thought about those people that's suffering worse than me but please just let me rant out. I think i'll feel better after writing this. ( should i do a describing myself post next time?¿ ) And how would i looked at myself if i am not me? 

we are. indeed. 

i feel lost again. 

Lost thoughts

Have been thinking alot and losing it. Like throughout my chain of thoughts , there's still sentence that i came up with , " death isn't scary, the thing in life that's scary is losing yourself. " that's my bio for my twitter acc and i re-phrased it. I don't know just like these few days i have been thinking alot and i feel that my thoughts brings me back to square one. I snapped out of it and it comes back. 

" dont make me sad, dont make me cry"

There's a lot of people that says society and media can totally change a person and we are all a product of social media. I wont deny that fact cause i still have that part of me that's changed. I need someone to reassure me that we'll be okay. These thoughts are truly scary, its not those suicidal thoughts but its the one that makes you think : " What is my main purpose in life? " i feel that I'm a lost soul now. It's all "i"s and starts from me , i know i have to end it right now. Please assure that we or rather i will be alright. And the thing about blog is it make my posts seems like it's all separated but it somehow links. 

Skincare routine

Hello all!:-) Decided to blog on this Youth Day cause i have a little bit of spare time and i was requested by this anon on askfm to do a blogpost on my skincare routine some time back so here is it now! Actually my skincare routine is nothing special , just consist of a few products. So first starting off, you must wash your face..( DUHH...) , then i use this as a cleanser thing

Have been buying and finishing this product for a few times already and i must say this is good. Alternatively, if i'm not using that, i will use this "Cetaphil" cleanser that many Youtube gurus recommended. Used it a few times and this is really nice too cause i have sensitive skin and it did not have any reaction. so its pretty good!

After all the cleansing your face, i will use this pore jelly pop thingie ( if i am not lazy ), and my mom got me this from some face product store and she say this is to help to remove the blackheads on my nose. And this is working pretty well for me , the blackheads on my nose is getting lesser and i'd definitely recommend you all to get this, although i must admit, this is a little pricey. 

So after all that washing and cleaning, it's time to close up your pores to prevent anymore dirt from entering. This is the toner i will use after i wash my face and before i go out to meet anyone. From The Body Shop, price i've forgotten. I really liked this product cause when you put it on your face, you will feel this tingy feeling, like your pores' really closing up and stuff. Also when i put on makeup for performances, this will further remove any left over foundation and even when i don't put on makeup, any dust and dirt will be removed as well and one bottle of this have lasted me for around a year since i got it already.

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and this puppy here will always be in my bag cause when I'm outside and i feel that my skin's getting a little dry, i will spray some of this on my face and it will keep my face feeling clean & refreshed. It acts as a mini toner as well. Double bonus! This face mist is from The Face Shop @ $14.95 i think. 

anddd so, HOW I DEAL WITH PIMPLES OR ACNES? ( those pesky little things.) whenever i get a breakout,i will apply some of the Himalaya acne-n-pimple cream first and after the pimple, you know burst, i'll apply the sealing gel thing <PS: that was given by my school as a free sample..> You can get both of the products at Watsons or any drugstore and the prices are quite affordable.

and recently i just bought this OXY cover up to use when I'm going out and meeting friends etc. at first i thought this would be some transparent gel thing to apply but it's actually a BB-cream type of cream to apply on affected areas. I tried it yesterday and it actually helped to not only cover up but also, it helps to heal the pimples. This is another MUST HAVE!! 

 

To end up , i would like to show you all my hashtag OOTD of yesterday, after seeing so much of facial products. 

Side slits white tank- TEM

Flannel skirt ( M A D love for this ) - Statementmuse 

Watch- CASIO

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